Home

The last two weekends I have gone home to Lafayette, for some reason everything feels so much different from when I left. My room is not the same, it's so empty. I almost don't like going home because it feels so awkward to me as bad as that sounds lol. My family is still the same and everyone treats me the same, the only difference i've seen in the way my family treats me is, they seem to treat me more as an adult which I don't mind at all:]! When it was time to go home it was bitter/sweet, I didn't want to leave my friends and family but I was also happy to be coming back to BSU to be on my own. It was so weird going home and actually having rules again. I like the fact that hear i can make my own decisions and when I went home that all went away. Needless to say I'm pretty happy to be back:]

Songs

I've been thinking about some songs I'm still not entirely sure which one I want to choose but here are some options:

Butterfly Kisses- Bob Carlisle (one of my absolute favorites!)

Old blue chair- Kenny Chesney

Summertime- Kenny Chesney

Making Memories of us- Keith Urban

so I really can't choose because I love all of these songs, but the one I think I could get the most out of would be butterfly kisses. So I might stick with that one:]

Ishmael Beah

I have never been so intrigued by one person in my whole life. It is absolutely amazing to me how Ishmael is able to have the personality that he does. He's an awesome person and I am so happy I went to this speech. It's amazing how we can take the littlest things for granted...like getting hot water out of a faucet, he thought this was one of the most amazing things he has ever seen. And that shows how much he actually did have to work for what he wanted. I couldn't imagine losing my whole family, he's come along way from going to the army at a very young age, seeing people die on a regular basis, going to rehab. I can't believe how far he has overcome all of these obstacle. Another thing that really struck me in the heart was when a person asked him a question about his new mother and how he was able to deal with that whole situation and starting a new life with her, he talked about how it was hard at first and how he wasn't even able to call her "Mom" for two years, I just feel so much for him. I some what see him as an Icon not just for kids who have gone through the same things he has...but for kids who have gone through similar experiences, I'm very thankful he shared his story with use, and came to speak to us. I look up to Ishmael Beah and am very great full to have had this experience.

writing

Today in class we did our self evaluation, this helped me out tremendously it really makes you think about you paper and what you could do exactly to make it ten times better. One thing I learned even after reading Eggers was that I could probably open up just a little bit more, and not be afraid to write down what I really want to say. The topic that I chose for my memoir is a really good start to try and open up because it was such a big impact on my life that I have a million things I could say about it. The peer reviews helped a lot I thought they really made me feel good about my paper and knowing that kind of gave me a little bit of inspiration to go an extra mile with it.

Big Day

I have been so swamped with homework and freaking out about getting it all done and hoping that i get it all done right! Thank God I have my friends here to help me stay on track. In high school i didn't really have trouble doing homework...this sounds bad but I guess I knew that I really didn't have to do it because it would hurt me as bad. NOPE here you have no choice really, because every little point helps in the long run. I guess my four years of high school didn't really prepare me the way I thought it would. I developed the worst study habits and up until my senior year there was not one test that I studied for. I guess coming here was a big wake up call. I'm not saying that I am doing terrible in my classes at all because that's not the case I'm doing well, It's just college has me overwhelmed! haha...anyways, I titled this blog big day because yesterday was my first day at my job. I enjoy it a lot! I work over in the Athletics Media Department and it's pretty cool because we get to work any games we want to like; Football, Volleyball, Soccer, Tennis, Basketball anything. I also work in the office where I file any type of sports related article. They keep these articles throughout the years, they have ones dating back all the way from the 60's!! it's pretty cool. I got very lucky with this job and I enjoy it bunches so far!!!! :)

Random

I'm kinda just going to blab about whatever is on my mind right now. I don't know how I am going to make it through this year! there is so much I have to do already it is crazy! I guess it's not unbearable it's just that there are so many people who expect so much out of you and for never being in college before your just sort of thrown into it not exactly with the right mind set..I know that's how I was anyway. I feel like I work hard on my homework but for some reason it just never seems like it's good enough. I'm glad I have friend here to help keep me focused and steer my head in the right direction...that's all I could ask for now.

Memoir

For my subject on my memoir I think I'm going to choose the time when my house caught on fire. It was a very memorable night for my whole family, and I think it would be most dramatic/visual to write about. Hearing everyone's topics gave me the thought of writing about this specific memory, I think something that another one of my peers said jogged my memory because I was originally going to write about moving out. So I compared the two just to see which on would be more worth while for someone to read, and I figured reading the one about my house catching on fire seemed to be more interesting. I can also incorporate more detail to that writing because there is so much to say from the sound of the firetrucks, to having to write down every single item that you own in the house, along with writing down everything that got damaged for insurance reasons. I am very happy with topic I chose and I hope my peers will like it! :]

school

I was so excited to start a new chapter in my life by moving into BSU. I love being on my own and making my own decisions, the first time I visited BSU I just knew that this is where I wanted to be. I love the campus and everyone is so friendly! I have never been around so many people that will actually hold a door open for you even if your still fifteen feet away I love it! I am very glad that I chose this school not just for the way it looks or the friendly people, but just because it's so welcoming, even my professors are so helpful and whatever you need they will be there to help you it's awesome.